i feel like throwing up

Directed by queer singer-songwriter Tom Goss, I Feel Like Throwing Up by Ryan Cassata is a visceral, defiant, and ultimately hopeful visual journey through illness, identity, and empowerment. Written during Cassata’s ongoing battle with Lyme disease and co-infections, the song and video channel the raw intensity of that experience into something transformative — linking personal pain with the broader struggle of trans resilience in today’s hostile political climate.
Starring the legendary Shea Diamond as a radiant, take-no-prisoners superhero, the video features a cast of BIPOC youth actors and unapologetically centers trans joy, resistance, and chosen family. In a striking showdown, our hero faces off against a MAGA mob, radiating power, pride, and the kind of love that builds unshakable community.
At a time when young trans people across the country are being targeted and made to feel isolated, I Feel Like Throwing Up stands as a beacon — a reminder that they’re not alone, and that fierce, vibrant community is not just a dream, but a reality we’re building together.